not enough hrs in the day to do study or sleep. i feel like i just have class the majority of the day & i can only study for 2 hrs before i’m tired &  need to sleep…then have to start the cycle all over again. i seriously have been falling asleep everywhere this whole week…-_____-

need them 5 hr energies & HELLLAAAA caffeine…

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my pledge sisters….dang…i think we’ve come a longgg way from where we started. we grew together & i honestly didn’t think i would get along w/ so many different personalities. but, we made it work & i wouldn’t trade it for the world. some i didn’t think i would get along w/ just b/c we’re SUCH different people. at least w/ my other friends, we shared some similarities…but w/ these girls, the only thing we had in common was the sorority we were rushing for. in the year that i’ve known them, i didn’t really expect to be so emotionally attached. there are some that i talk to more than others, but i truly love them all. i didn’t really realize how strong of a connection we had until i hear about what they’re all going through in their lives. they’ve truly suffered from many adversities…but they seem so strong in daily life. when given the opportunity to express our feelings about what’s going on in our lives…it’s just really eye-opening. they really inspire me to be a stronger person…for myself & them. 

i guess what i’m trying to say w/ my stupid rambling is that…i’m really going to miss them when we all part ways. i know sometimes we just don’t seem invested in the time we have together, but idk…it just makes me sad to think that…the people that i’ve established such a strong connection w/ in a short period of time are going to leave? that’s sad.

sometimes, i realize that we’re not a very…cohesive unit? but, to me, we’re family & i wouldn’t trade them for anything. i just wish we spent more time w/ each other as a group since 3 are leaving soon…=((

-________- ugh such sad, depressing thoughts come up late at night…

i’m in need some inspiration to pull through 1 more year of school! i’m definitely slacking & it’s not looking good on my grades…which i was supposed to improve! i pray for B’s this qtr…-_____-

oh. & i dug myself in a hole by scheduling 3 finals on the VERY first day of finals week. FML